The sky is grey, the hills all green and misty, the house is still…I hear birds singing and children playing and a certain kind of sadness embraces me, that I cannot escape…
This sense of expecting something to happen is beyond tolerance, I feel trapped inside this room, inside this body, inside my wicked mind which plays tricks on me…the fleeting memories, the unbearable inability to forget, the random thoughts, the hopelessness of it all…
I watch the clouds out of the window and they move so fast, it’s quite peculiar…In no other place do they move as fast as here, at this time and space..and along with them, the fireworks of melancholy and despair, irradiating from within myself…
The football court is deserted too, the children are not playing anymore; they must be indoors, doing their homework, while waiting for the rain to start..or watching TV with their siblings or playing video games…or cuddling with their cat and daydreaming…the thought of this fills me with sudden tenderness and I cannot help smiling coyly…
Today is the 4th of July and the Americans are celebrating their Independence Day. Happy 4th of July I guess!